On Loss
- onegaia
- Sep 13, 2022
- 1 min read
My oldest friend just left Earth. I wonder if she is watching from her night sky, even as I look up to the stars or dig my feet into the earth to experience the integration of loss. Saying goodbye to an oldest friend is complicated. Having not been here before, I see that there is a special place of longing that belongs to and colors the sorrow of losing her. I discover that she is intertwined with my understanding of life, of time and space and all that belongs here: decades-long memories that flood my psyche to help me continue on.
We had one last week on the phone together. Her gift to me in that week: presencing Eternity. I had forgotten how it feels to encounter and welcome that realm. It must be how it feels to be Home. Now a siren dance of the present, the past and the eternal occurs. I pray that this gift of eternity changes my perceptions here, on behalf of all life. Thank you Bluejay for all your days on earth, and for being my Serbian soulmate. Vechnaya Pamyat (memory eternal).
"That special place of longing" touches me deeply. You are wrapped in loving pink sparkling love. Thank you for this writing.
From Angela: Iris! The love that flowed through your words was so heartfelt. You were both lucky in your life to experience all the years apart, or together. All the lessons learned will be with you two forever. Until the day you reunite always know she is still at your side. Rest in peace Bluejay. And fly high in the spirit realm.
As someone who has a lifelong friend as well, I cannot imagine the pain you are enduring dear Iris. I'm sending heartfelt hugs to you. Your exquisite detail of this loss is perfectly described for those of us who can only imagine. I'm so sorry...xoxo